Taking in the Reality Pill

There was a moment in my life when I was so gone over someone that my world revolved around him.  There wasn’t a day that I never thought about him.  He was my alpha and omega; the night, the day and the merienda.  It was a weird experience that, although I knew was unhealthy, made me happy in one way or the other.  But it was all for nothing, because I never mattered to him, ever.

It was sad, because he saw me as his "bro", "dude", and "tsong".  I never was a girl for him…only a barkada with long hair and evident female parts.  I was silly and crazily in love enough for him to accept even just a morsel of attention through that way; gosh, that was so low, but love made you do really low things.

And then, some time, when my world was taking on a rather vicious change…I decided to just chill and let go.  I took some sort of reality check and went out there to look at the world through different eyes.  Lo and Behold!  Life was better when you aren’t hindered by wrong decisions.  I saw how wrong I was in living a silent hell; torturing myself, when life is so much better when you’re not allowing yourself to be hurt.

Love is a chance we all decided to take; but, it should be a chance that will enrich your life, not ruin it into tiny little pieces.

I chose to love and get hurt.  This time I chose to move on and get out of that entanglement for my sake.  I will never forget how he inspired me to write all the beautiful love stories and poems for the last six years.  But life goes on, so I must to.

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